As you may know, my girlfriend (her blog can be found here) has something called Fibromyalgia. In short, it's a disorder that mostly causes pain throughout most of the body, and it can also cause sleep problems, stiff joints, numbness and tingling as well as some others. But they are mostly what Tracey gets. Here is a picture of the symptoms:
An illustration of Fibromyalgia symptoms |
The problem is that, because there no external symptoms, i.e. symptoms that can be seen, people tend to think that it's all in the head. It isn't. It's there. I know i can't imagine what it feels like because it hasn't happened to me. There is also no known cure for it yet.
And that means i can't do anything about it. Medicines don't do very much, they get rid of the pain a bit, but it obviously doesn't cure it. And I am totally helpless. Not just because she's in Dublin and I'm in Birmingham. Even if I'm there with her, there's nothing i can do. I just have to sit there, knowing she's in pain. At best I can cuddle her and do things for her. But that isn't enough. I don't want her to be going through this pain. But we have no choice. There's nothing anyone can do except try to relieve the pain when it appears.
If you want to read more about it, the Wikipedia page is here.
On another note, I have recently came back from seeing Tracey in Ireland. As usual, it was amazing and we had loads of sex. We always have an amazing time. I love spending time with her. I love just cuddling with her. I try and touch her, hold her hand as much as i can. I love every moment with her.
And oh yeah, my Galaxy Note is a bit broken. It doesn't charge properly anymore. So i'm going to leave for work early and take it back to the 3 shop. I miss my Note. I've been using my Nexus S.
Anyway I have to get ready for work. Toodle pip
I love spending every minute with you Michael and you more for me by just been there. I love you with all my heart xx
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